The End is Only a New Beginning

I began to hit delete on a few previous posts that I had made, but after deleting one I realized that I didn't want to. I am not ashamed of my past and I, no matter how hard I try, will never be able to make the past disappear. I am no longer engaged, but I will not hide it from the world anymore. There was a time where I did not want to tell people. Not because I was secretly hoping we could work things out, but rather because I felt that it was not anyone's business. I was in a relationship for five and a half years and engaged for two of those years. We split up shortly after our two year anniversary of being engaged. Things did not end badly, they simply just ended. Although he was the first to say he didn't want us anymore, I was in immediate agreement. He and I both had not been happy with how our relationship was going and it wasn't fair to "settle". If we went through with getting married we would have both been settling for things that we did not want. There is no hatred or resentment, we still respect each other and will try to be friends. We both, one-hundred percent, deserve someone who will make us happy and now we have that chance. It's sad that I was not the one who was able to make him happy, but that's okay. It doesn't mean I'm a bad person or that he's a bad person, it simply means that we were not right for each other. I have written the last page of my story with him and now it's time to start a new story by myself. The end is only a new beginning for me.

Where Has Time Gone?

I used to think that time went so slowly that everyday seemed to last forever. Now that I have gotten older I realize that time is the complete opposite. It goes by so fast. I have been in college for three years now, well almost three. I'm finishing up my Junior semester and will finally be a senior! How crazy is that! I feel like just yesterday I was a freshman just entering college for the first time. I'm actually sad that time is flying by. This semester has been the greatest yet, I have four classes that I love and that I'm doing extremely well in! I don't want them to end. I just filled out my end of the semester teacher evaluations and it's bittersweet. I am happy to be continuing on in my education, but there's a part of me that just wants to stay in this semester forever. But, unfortunately I know that time will not stop for anyone and I think I will be okay with that. I will continue on throughout my life and learn to live every minute because one day those minutes will be gone.